Odessa Zara's

As I lay in bed, my mind was consumed by a heavy weight, the weight of my past mistakes and failures. It was as if a dark cloud had descended over me, and I couldn't escape its shadow. No matter how much I tried to push those negative thoughts away, they clung to me like a thick fog, suffocating me. The thought that I might have caused harm to myself and others lingered like a bad dream. The more I thought about it, the more it seemed like my mistakes were ingrained in my character, a part of who I am. And this realization only added to my worries, causing me to wonder if I would ever be able to make things right. As I struggled to find a way forward, I couldn't help but feel helpless and lost. The gloom of my thoughts seemed to suffuse everything around me, casting a pall over even the brightest moments. It was as if I was trapped in a never-ending cycle of despair, unable to see a path out. In moments like these, it's easy to forget that we have the power to shape our own...

On the joyous occasion of Idul Fitri, I had the pleasure of visiting my extended family, and what I encountered there left me deeply impressed. Amongst the elders of my family were some truly remarkable people, who had carved out illustrious careers as leading anesthesiologists in Medan, eminent lawyers, and distinguished lecturers. As I conversed with them, I realized two critical things that would shape my perspective towards my chosen profession. Firstly, the sight of my extended family's accomplished professionals inspired me to become a force for positive change. It struck me that the professions they had chosen were not just "cool" but served as a catalyst for social and economic development, which motivated me to become a professional capable of benefiting society.  I was reminded of a beautiful analogy that I once heard - just like the mighty oak tree that casts its shadow to protect and nourish those beneath its boughs, our profession must serve as a shelter, pro...

📝👀✈️🙏🍜💤🌆👋🌎🔌💻📚 After more than a year and a half, I finally mustered the courage to sit beside the window on my flight to Kuala Lumpur. There were times when I cried a lot due to my fear of flying, but this time I decided to take the window seat and was rewarded with a beautiful view of the city lights at night. It was a long-awaited sight! Before my flight, I took some time to perform a short itikaf in the airport prayer room. I was feeling a mix of emotions- nervousness for the journey ahead, sadness for being alone, and maybe even a bit of overthinking about unfinished work and friendships. But during my prayers, I felt a sense of peace and comfort. After praying, I went on a search for sahoor. I hoped to find KFC in the airport, but there wasn't any open, so I looked for rice. Unfortunately, all I found was noodles, so I grabbed some to go and headed to my gate. As I arrived, people were already queuing to board, but I took a moment to sit and eat my noodles. Just in ...

Ajukan pendapatmu, sekalipun itu berlawanan, jika berada di dalam tim yang bersuara bulat, karena bisa jadi ada yang berpikiran serupa tetapi memutuskan tutup mulut;  Pertimbangkan besar kemungkinan sebuah peristiwa;  Nilailah produk dan layanan hanya berdasarkan harga dan keuntungannya;  Mulailah berpikir dari hal yang paling umum;  Sadari bahwa di dunia nyata, keseimbangan sangat mungkin tidak terjadi;  Saat ingin memengaruhi orang lain, beri umpan atau acuan terlebih dahulu;  Sadari bahwa kepastian adalah hal yang paling tidak pasti;  Sadari bahwa hal buruk memang lebih mudah diingat;  Buatlah sejelas mungkin pembagian tugas individual dalam kerja kelompok;  Saat menghadapi pertumbuhan sesuatu yang eksponensial, jangan di kira-kira berapa hasilnya. Hitunglah dengan kalkulator; Sebisa mungkin jangan ikuti lelang;  Jika ingin benar-benar memahami sesuatu, lihat apa yang ada di baliknya;  Cermati hubungan yang katanya "sebab-akibat"...

ピーピーという鳥の鳴き声で目が覚め、グッタリという日々の責任に肩を落とす。すべてを乗り越えることができるのか？心のキュンという痛みを乗り越えて、一日を乗り切れるだろうか？ ブツブツと音を立ててキッチンに向かい、ゴソゴソと考える。何を食べようか？カラカラと腹が鳴る。慰めになるもの、新しいもの、どちらが良いのだろう？良い朝食が一日を過ごす上で本当に重要なのだろうか？ お気に入りのアニメを見ながら、ドキドキと物語に没頭して自分自身を忘れるようにする。でも、エンディングで現実がブチッと戻ってくる。このまま本当に続けることができるのか？自分自身をこんなに酷使することが本当に価値があるのか？ ミーティングやクラスに出席しながら、ゴボゴボと胸の重さに耐える。休憩をとるようにと人々が言うのを聞くが、ピリピリとした気持ちと、あきらめずに一生懸命努力するようにと人々が言うのも聞こえる。正しい道はどちらなのか？正しい道が本当にあるのか？ 研究助手として働きながら、ドンドンと疲れが追いついてくる。でも、自分自身をガッチリと保ち、乗り切ろうとする。努力がガツンと報われるだろうか？それとも、ギュッと疲れと後悔しか残らないのだろうか？ 明日、明後日、その先がどうなるかわからないけれど、君はそれでもバリバリと試し続ける。すべてがトントンと困難なときでも、試し続けなければならない。どうなるのだろうか？強く生きる力をバンバン見つけることができるだろうか？答えはタタタと時間が解決してくれるだろう。